there are certain things, if I hear or see or read or experience, it takes me to a really awful place inside and it sucks and my chest hurts and my face feels hot. I wish nothing affected me like that. Whenever it happens I try to take a really deep breath and then when I let it out I imagine all the negativity flowing out. I don’t wanna drown in my negativity
But I also need hugs. Please hug me and pet my head
maybe it’s because I was working so hard to stay calm all day long despite being phoneless that now I’m freaking out hard about it.
do you know what it’s like being completely phoneless? I literally use my phone as a clock and when it died I had no idea what time it was. I had to look for wall clocks and ask people for the time. I can’t check the weather, my email, get phone calls, get text messages, cant check my bank account, ugh…..and all the contacts I had….and all the memorable text conversations I had with people that I liked to look back on and smile….
oommmggg I don’t even want a new phone…!! I want that phone to magically revive T___________T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I need it….oh god…how do the earth and stars magically align to cause my phone to get knocked into the sink?!? While I’m washing my hands?!?!?
I literally went through phase one of denial. Now I’m going through phase 2 of freak out because idk what I’m supposed to do without all the info on that phone….
I was dealing with being phone-less throughout the day pretty well but now it’s really sunk in how much information I’ve lost and I’m so sad…
Literally so frustrated that some girl knocked my phone into the sink and killed it. And my dad is acting like I should have had the foresight to see it coming when I’ve been putting my books down on that shelf for one and a half years now and nothing like that has ever happened. T_T My phone was in prime condition and I was taking such good care of it….I can’t believe such a freak thing occurred….I don’t even know what to do because I need my contacts and I have people who need to contact me for school and things and I don’t have facebook to tell them what happened and ugh….I don’t have their number to text them from another phone what happened either….